change...

“When people are ready to, they change. They never do it before then, and sometimes they die before they get around to it. You can't make them change if they don't want to, just like when they do want to, you can't stop them.” - Andy Warhol

i love that quote.  right now, i'm thinking about the changes i made (when i was ready) and how, now, i feel like, you can't stop me.

i made big changes by joining the gym and finding exercise that i like.  LOVE.  deep water jogging, spinning, even weight class.  i also changed my diet in big ways.

i lost 30 pounds in 6 months.  then things slowed down...

then, i found out i had a tumor in my uterus.  not cancer.  but major surgery scheduled.

so, the changes i made were suddenly met with life changes i hadn't anticipated.  i wouldn't be meeting my goal to get under 200 pounds by the end of the year.  not with surgery and a long recovery where i won't be able to hit the gym.

it was hard to wrap my mind around things.  i had a few weeks of eating some fast food, going to the gym less.

then i realized that i couldn't control life (and tumors and things) but i could change how i handled it.

i readjusted my goals.  i decided that before surgery i'd spend as much time at the gym as i could.  and i'd keep experimenting with new vegetables.  i also came up with a plan to clean the entire house before surgery, room by room, each weekend.

so now i know how to make celery root hash browns and my bathroom is sparkling.  i wish i were on track to lose more weight faster, but that's not in the cards.

but i am not gaining any weight.  and that's progress.  and after surgery, i'm going to try to follow a high protein/ low carb diet for a few weeks (my doctor said that will help the healing process.)

and tomorrow i'm going to the gym after work to try pickle ball.  a weird team sport that's sort of like table tennis with a wiffle ball on a tennis court.  weird!